SUPERmom Instincts

Instincts.

As a mom aren’t we supposed to have super amazing instincts?

 

I sort of go a little crazy in the wee hours of the morning. And at 4:52 this morning when my daughter woke up, I couldn’t decide if I should go tell her it was still bedtime (sometimes that works, sometimes it just ticks her off) or if I should just let her be. I honestly sat up on one elbow and laid back down again four times. Up, down, up, down, up, down… and I kept thinking—where are my supermom instincts?? Shouldn’t I know which decision will work for her at this time, on this morning?

Well, I didn’t.

 

Thus the up, down, up, down.

 

In the end down won. I was tired and unsure and it didn’t take long for her to go back to sleep, but I kept thinking about those supermom instincts I should have. And I realized I do have them, just not all the time. I think we aren’t supposed to have the right answer all the time.

 

Mom’s don’t always get to sleep.

I learned that a long time ago. It’s part of being MOM.

But when it really matters—like when my second son was 3 days old and hadn’t eaten in hours and his little body was lethargic and limp I knew something was wrong and he needed more than I could give. We needed help. Smarter, more experienced people around me (even the doctor on the phone) kept saying: give him a little more time, he’ll perk up. But I just knew we didn’t have more time. We rushed him to the ER and I was right, he didn’t. An IV and oxygen were given immediately. A couple days later we came out of hospital with our boy--because we'd gotten there in time. 

So, maybe we can’t be supermom all of the time, but hopefully we can when it counts. If we were always supermom with ultra behaved, sleeping soundly, eating perfectly children, what on earth would we be learning?