Putting yourself out there--

It's never easy.

The first book I completed (I had half a dozen started in high school) is called:

Am I 30 Yet?

I wrote it the year I turned 30. It took me only 6 months. And one day when I am done re-writing it {it needs more than editing!} I'll try to publish it too.

Anyway, having people read what I wrote up to that point had been an ooober scary thing.

As I was writing this book I told my very good friend Samantha about it. She wanted to read it. Now, I am not even kidding when I tell you this. I would have her come to my house and watch her every single minute while she read each and every chapter. Seriously, I'd stare at her.

Sorry about that Sam.

But she read every word and when she said she loved it, it was a huge high. I had always wanted to be published, in fact I sent my first children's story off to a publisher (not having a clue how to go about it correctly) when I was just 13.

I guess my point is this, I put my heart on my sleeve and it paid off.

Now, that same book I had another gal read and she hated it. In fact she only made it through about 3 chapters... I think I offended her. She was a 30-something unmarried gal. And my book was about an almost 30-something unmarried gal.

Anywhoo-- the high I'd felt was worth the risk and I gave my manuscript to another friend, my buddy, Amy.--who by the way also love it. :)

Err, or they love me. Hmmm... well, their "likes" always felt sincere.

Today, while cleaning out our storage room I found a box full of my college notebooks. Hahahaha. Yes, I'll be needing all that jazz soon. Err--not.

But there was one notebook in there, a book of poems I'd written in High School. So, I decided to put myself out there again and share one with you. I'll tell you up front I am a pretty sucky poet.

No, seriously, suck-yy!

I can write a 300 page novel easier than a poem.

But this one, I actually liked. It had inside meaning for me.

And my BFF and college roommate Kristina really did love it. She hung it up in our dorm room and then one day she gave it away to a gal she visit taught. I haven't seen it since the day she gave it away.

Today, I found a copy! :)

I don't know that it's as great as I remember, but here ya go.

And this ends my career as a poet. :)

But my point today is that it's okay to put yourself out there.

In fact it's good for us.